Category: Inspiring stories

A Bipolar doctor becomes authentic

I am a physician living with bipolar disorder.  For many years, I travelled the bumpy road of refusing to accept my diagnosis. I avoided psychiatric care for far too long. And, I internalized the shame and the stigma of being a doctor with a mental illness. This caused me to nail my bipolar closet closet door firmly shut.  Despite this, I opted a few years ago to step forward and publicly acknowledge that I have a mood disorder. I hoped that there would be a greater good in doing so.  I have shared my diagnosis with family, friends, colleagues and at international conferences. It was the start of a bipolar doctor becomes authentic.

Blue lights shining down illuminating the sharing of our stories

I never expected it but I have received more hugs and support from those who now know my story than I ever thought could come my way.  Although I had been worried about personal and professional repercussions, it turned out that these fears were unwarranted.  My biggest hurdle turned out to be the guy staring back at me from a mirror colored with self-condemnation.  I have come to see that there are few things in life more powerful than authenticity.  Replacing the corrosive inner narratives that had been swirling in my head with ones of affirmation and self respect has freed me in a way I couldn’t previously imagine.  By coming out of these shadows, I have stepped into the light of a much brighter and healthier day.

Read another post about authenticity here.